Proudly Asian

I'm an Asian and I'm proud about it. I think it's wonderful to inherit Siamese and Indonesian blood from my ancestors. Peace.

Mama used to buy me herb pills (jamu) when I was still in school but being so young that time, I never finished them because I never felt the need to do so. It was until recently that I decided to go back to consume jamu because let's admit it, our grannies are a lot healthier and stronger than us. Well my grannies are. And mama just bought me a pack of bath herb I'm so keen to soak in afterwards! I hope it won't leave me a potent smell.

It's arduous

People don't understand how arduous it is being in the middle of everything. It is exhausting to think where I'm going and what I'm doing when I have always been in a complete state of balance all this while. It is not fun to enjoy socializing and at the same time liking solitude. It is not fun to have a critical thinking and also a creative one. It is not fun not knowing my genuine self.

Lost

I want to write poems again, but I've lost my emotions.

And it's like

There's no point of writing.

I used to write poems

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

You broke everything I am

This confusion it's sickening

Wish I hadn't laid my eyes on your face

And lend my ears on your promises

For that was the day my heart started to race for you

That was the day my soul started to yearn for you

I didn't realize I placed myself in this jeopardy

Breaking myself in the hazard of you

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Are you okay?

Who doesn't love nature?

The breeze that kiss my cheek

It feels so calm

And I close my eyes to feel his presence

I see a pair of eyes looking dull,

It breaks me

Why won't you smile again honey?

I miss your laughing face,

Your smiling lips

Why won't you smile for me honey?

Monday, August 8, 2011

This silence doesn't kill me anymore

For I've learned a lot from you now,
I've cried a lot for you now.

Let the time decides,

Let our hearts heal,

Let our love grows again,

Sweetheart.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Longing for you

Deep inside me boo

It's burning brightly

I'm longing for our memory

I'm longing for you

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

I can't help it

Here I send you my sweetest regard,

For these beautiful memories you left me,

I wish we could have what we had,

Again, never ending,

I wonder why I loved you this much,

It seems that your love is all I want,

Your soul is all I know,

Your voice is all I hear,

And the smell on your shirt,

Is all I remember,

Now I'm all alone,

This wishful thinking kills me,

For now I know you're gone,

And it's just me,

I loved  you so well,

Everyone can tell,

Now can you tell me how to heal,

This heart that no more can feel?

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Terribly wrong

Empty muse

Silent words

I'm breathing next to you

Catching a cold from the ice inside of your soul

You had the way

Rendering solace at my perfect misery

I started a fight from the inside of me

Risking the chance of breaking

And you took the very

The very best of me

Where did it all go

What a shame

I'm on this fragile line

Trying to bring down this wall

You put up between us

Crying for you

Would you keep it to yourself

If I died for you

Thursday, December 30, 2010

My friend in need

Under this tree I sit,

Looking at the sky,

Wiggling my feet,

Figuring out why,

Why did we have to meet,

When now I'm alone,

No one to play with,

My friend in need.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Elated

I stood under the rain

With my best friend

Enjoying the chills

The coldness really heals

I stood under the rain

With my boyfriend

Hear he sings

My king, I'm your queen

This moment I shall never leave behind

This moment will linger in my mind

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Fathom me

I stayed up all night long

To ascertain if I could stay strong

Through this bond we are tied in

The circumstances we say we would win

I love you, I do

I wanna be with you, it's true

I'm sorry I'm not good enough

I'm sorry to say that our bond is tough

I don't regret being with you at all

I know I can't handle losing you my all

You are good enough to me

You care so much, I see, I see

You may say I'm blind

But I know I have not found the feelings I always find

I hope you know, I hope you see

All I want you to do is to understand me

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Lacuna

You lent me your arms

You made me feel warm

You lent me your arms

You shielded me from harm

Tonight you kill me

Tonight I see

You are just a blade

You cut me on my back

Now that I'm dead

I do not have to live with hate

Monday, November 8, 2010

Hatred

Do you know hate

The feeling you get when you turn enraged

Your pulsating heart is breaking

And your tears start rolling

Have you ever hold it back

You forgive and you forget

Only to be contrite

Jaded and wasted

Does it make you stronger

Can you conquer your fear

Each time life gets bitter

Gloomy days are to meet its end

You are not to receive commands

Raise up and make it right

You are not to take the wrong path

Friday, October 22, 2010

Nostalgia

I smile as I reminisce

Into all the saccharine

I once involved in

Funny to discern

It's with chaps I most draw in

I never expect

My tags would leave them an impact

I never reckon

Their presence would stay incessant

In my mind

I then realized

They are all still in my heart

And they shall never I forget

Friday, October 15, 2010

Anesthetic

Do you see right in these eyes

The pain I'd like to tell

Of his willingness

To take away merriment

I can't define this wound he left me

But I know,

I know this wound would scar me

And I shan't be amended anymore

No,

You can't fix me

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Coldness heals

I lie awake in my bed

Lingers in this dreadful feeling

I'd like to wreck

Rain please pour down

Wash away my taut

Put me to sleep

And don't wake me up

Monday, August 2, 2010

If you and I

If you and I

Had wings to fly

We'll fly up high in the sky

Athwart the sea

We'll leave this city

You and me

Set our souls free

Saturday, July 31, 2010

A tranquil evening

It's a tranquil evening

Wind tousle my hair calmly

Birds fly high

Chirping gaily

I feel so alone honey

Thinking of how great it'd be

If you're here with me

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Her shattered heart

It never came across her mind

That love could render her such pain

Thousands of blade pricking her heart

She could not withstand

Healthy pretty

Karina Giglio (2013) quoted "The skin's barrier, which is known as the acid mantle, is responsible for keeping in lipids and moisture while blocking germs, pollution, toxins, and bacteria," explains Patricia Wexler, M.D., a New York City dermatologist. "To work its best, the acid mantle should be slightly acidic, at a 5.5 pH balance. When it's too alkaline, skin becomes dry and sensitive; you may even get eczema. You may also experience inflammation, which inhibits the skin's ability to ward off matrix metalloproteinases [MMPs], the enzymes that destroy collagen and cause wrinkles and sagging."

April Long (2011) wrote somewhat paradoxically,  while an acidic pH is optimum for the epidermis, the body's internal pH should be mildly alkaline. Blood needs to maintain a narrow pH margin of between 7.35 and 7.45 for cells to function properly—including those in the dermis, or inner layer of skin, which are most robust with an alkaline pH of 7.35.

So, we need to use products that would not upset our skin pH and consume alkaline food to be healthy and look pretty.

Just give up

Girls don't get it

Because girls don't get it.

That no one has that perfect complexion
without the help of makeup.

That no one has that perfect hair
without the help of a stylist.

That no one has that perfect body
without going through regular exercises.

That no one has that perfect picture
without the help of Photoshop.

Girls don't get it
that they are perfect with their flaws.

Heartbreaker

For all my life I've been believing that girlfriends don't last forever, spouse does. I was so wrong. Girlfriends never break the heart. Boys do.

Honestly,

I hate you.

If you're afraid to let it out, don't be. Just let them know, because hating someone is normal.

Stalker

Show, then tell you love, because if you show alone it's halfway done and if you tell alone it's stupid.

Girlfriend's girl

Or mummy's? Some mothers are a lot more fun than girlfriends. If you're reading this and you're a mother, try being one. Because the best thing in life is to bitch around with our own mother. You got me right.