Proudly Asian

I'm an Asian and I'm proud about it. I think it's wonderful to inherit Siamese and Indonesian blood from my ancestors. Peace.

Mama used to buy me herb pills (jamu) when I was still in school but being so young that time, I never finished them because I never felt the need to do so. It was until recently that I decided to go back to consume jamu because let's admit it, our grannies are a lot healthier and stronger than us. Well my grannies are. And mama just bought me a pack of bath herb I'm so keen to soak in afterwards! I hope it won't leave me a potent smell.

It's arduous

People don't understand how arduous it is being in the middle of everything. It is exhausting to think where I'm going and what I'm doing when I have always been in a complete state of balance all this while. It is not fun to enjoy socializing and at the same time liking solitude. It is not fun to have a critical thinking and also a creative one. It is not fun not knowing my genuine self.

Lost

I want to write poems again, but I've lost my emotions.

And it's like

There's no point of writing.